Until I awaken to full presence,
Through all my lifetimes, birth after birth,
May not even the words wrong or struggle be heard
And may I enjoy the wealth of oceans of well-being and virtue.
Commentary
Spiritual practice comes easily to some people, but for most, it is pretty hard. No matter how well we practice, we still have to eat, we need a place to live, and clothes to wear. Much time and energy goes into taking care of the necessities of life. Even if we live in retreat, we usually meet difficulties, interruptions, and problems, internal and external. They seem to follow us, just as a shadow follows a body.
Here Rangjung Dorje makes a big wish. He wishes to be completely free of problems and difficulties, not only in this life, but in all future lives. His first wish is not to encounter any problematic behavior (wrong) in himself or in others. His second wish is not to struggle or suffer as his spiritual understanding matures. His third wish is to enjoy an ocean of well-being and virtue—sound body, clear mind, and every action kind, considerate, timely, and helpful, leaving no basis for regret or remorse.
This is not a practical wish. This is a dream. But it is good to dream. As I read this verse, something in me relaxes and opens. Unrealistic though it may be, this dream-wish points in a direction that something in me longs for.
Take a moment now and consider the ideal conditions for you to practice. What are they? Then ask yourself, “Do I really want that?” The answer can be surprising. If it’s “Yes”, then start making your dream a reality. If it’s “No”, well, why not?